04 May 2008

Alone

I've become bored with everything

I don't really know if anything is even worth the effort anymore

It's probably just hormones

I'm not looking forward to going back to TAFE, with "them" and "her" OMG I don't think I can take being back there with "her" asking stupid petty questions that drive me crazy. Even when I move seats she makes a big deal about me moving seats, so I feel guilty and move back... And I was there first and she sat down next to me. Why is she even there? Why am I there? Why IT? My mind can't decide... My heart can't decide what I want, and it fustrates me... I'm 21, never ever had a boyfriend... and here I am Blogging, instead of being out in the world trying to find someone, being sociallable... I'm not capable of being sociallable, but I don't want to be alone.