09 August 2010

Backlit Medley

Finally got around to watching Inception, and it was amazing. I loved it, and want to see it again. My thoughts here.
I'm feeling lost in the whole blogging thing. I don't really know what I want to do or not. LiveJournal, Blogger, something new. I hate being indecisive.
Feeling trapped and lonely. As much as I loved going to the movies on my own yesterday, I wish there was someone I could of invited. My closest friend doesn't have much in common with me. She likes anime and manga, fine I like anime and manga too, but not the the extent she does, and we don't like the some music, and our film tastes are a little different. I love her of course, but I just wish I had something more in common with her.
All my other friends are online (I've met one of them) but they seem to be quiet online at the moment, mostly because they have lives =D and other than them I have my sisters and the people I work with, and that's it. Mum tells me to go out and meet people, but I just can't. I feel so uncomfortable socializing with people, at work I'm fine, I have my job to do and I do it, but I don't do small talk, I don't mingle. And from what I've seen of the people in town (no offense to any of them reading this) they're not a very exciting bunch.... work all week, get drunk on Friday and Saturday night, send Sunday sobering up, back to work on Monday and repeat. And I don't drink, so that pretty much excludes me from most of Albany's social scene.
I'm turning 24 this year. And I've never done anything. I have no social experience whatsoever. I don't want to be alone, I don't want to go out.... it's a lose/lose situation really. that all comes down to one thing.... my stupid weight =(
Today I was suppose to get up early and go for a walk, but of course that didn't happen. My alarm went off and I rolled over and turned it off. Tonight I'm going to set my alarm and but my clock on the other side of my room so I have to get up and out of bed to turn it off.
I did however do ONE of the things I planned. I went out to Harvey Norman and bought a new 1.5Tb hard drive. Then promptly handed it over to Nigel so he can fill it with awesome stuff, including The A Team movie, and lots of e-comics and movies. So I'm excited. So I have something to look forward too.
I'm not looking forward to Jury Duty next week. I really hope I don't get chosen, because I'm not in the right frame of mind to deal with someone elses' shit. Maybe if I burst into tears just as I'm about to be chosen, they won't choose me. Hopefully my job at Blockbuster will mean I won't have too, cos I know everyones' phone numbers and addresses and shit.

That's enough today. I'll leave you in peace.

Princess Geek  


  1. OMG I know how you feel. I am insanely shy. I so totally suck at being social. I know it isn't the same really because I am married (still not sure how I pulled that off!) But Nigel is constantly telling me I should be more social and go out and meet people and I am like 'You want me to do WHAT?!'
    My problem is a complete lack of confidence. I have problems going walking because I feel conspicuous going alone, this applies to shopping, having coffee or anything else in public, and because I am insanely shy I can't socialize either. It stops me from trying anything new.

    I applaud you at being able to go to the movies by yourself. It may seem trivial to you and I know you don't really want to go alone but it is such an empowering thing to do. I wish I had the confidence that you do.

  2. I'm the opposite, as much as I like to do things with my friends, I'd rather do it on my own, than interact with people I don't really know. I love going to the movies on my own, because I dint have to worry about listening to people talking and whispering to me, the only time I felt lonely was before the movie started and I was sitting on my own and everyone was coming in and sitting around me, but once the movie started I was fine.
    I wish there was more to do in this town socially for us. But like I mentioned in this blog most people in this town just want to drink and get drunk. We should start a "geek club" :)

  3. I would love to do things on my own or with people. To shy to meet people and to paranoid to go it alone... now that is a rock and a hard place lol. I am so badly shy that I have problems even making friends on the net. OMG that sounds so dumb.

    You are right though there is nothing here for people who don't drink or go clubbing. I can think of nothing worse than spending my weekends surrounded by drunk morons (not saying that everyone who drinks is a moron) but you get my drift.