22 September 2013


I didn't expect this post to end up so wordy.
It's most rambles.
There are a few stupid irrational brain rambles included.
I'm pretty much just talking about myself... like always.

Listening ... 
Random Access Memories by Daft Punk (on repeat)
(especially Instant Crush & Lose Yourself to Dance)
How Long Will I Love You by Ellie Goulding
it's such a beautiful song! makes my lonely heart ache :(
I discovered that one of the bands that I loved during my "emo" phase, who also broke up around that time (I was devastated) released an album last year.
I didn't even realise.
Last night I was trying to educate Emma on my Euro-Pop obsession and I discovered that
The Rasmus
has a new ALBUM!
I was so excited.
and it's so GOOD!!!!
and Lauri (the lead singer) is still adorable
and still wearing Raven feathers in his hair!

Watching ... 
This Is The End
Now You See Me
Bob's Burgers
Star Trek Into Darkness
Daft Punk Music Videos
Adventure Time
Futurama Season 7
Planet Earth

Reading ... 
Books for work (not because I have too, I want too)
Mostly activity books, but some books about how children learn
How to embrace play and learning, invite children to play hence helping them learn
It's very interesting.

Eating ... 
Not much over the last week because I've been sick
But when I have eaten it's been all the wrong stuff.
Last weekend mum and I had planned all this week out, food wise
and then I got sick and it went out the window.
We will try again next week.

Drinking ... 
I actually found myself not drinking much Pepsi Max
It was tasting really sweet for some reason
Plus being sick, all I've felt like is water
Water is Good!

Wearing ... 
Pretty much my PJs all week!

Feeling ...
This week has been quite traumatic
I've been really sick
Had several Panic Attacks, because I would have coughing fits and not be able to breathe
Not being able to sleep lying down sucks!
plus hurts my back.
But I can now sleep lying down
my coughing fits aren't very severe anymore
and I'm getting my sense of smell back!

Wanting ...
my work related anxieties to fuck off.
They're stupid and irrational
and I don't want them anymore!

Needing ...
to Relax and also detox after a week of being sick
Back at work tomorrow.
I miss the kids.

Thinking ...
about a lot of silly irrational things
things I know are stupid and not going to happen
but you know how the brain works
sometimes it know, but that doesn't make the thoughts any less depressing
I've been thinking a lot about how my taste in music has changed.
I used to LOVE the Finnish band HIM
but I can't even get through one of their new songs
I guess it's the associative memories related to them :(
Which sucks, because they're still good
they just don't make me feel happy like they used to.
Luckily other bands that I liked around the same time
don't have any bad associated memories.
My music taste has become less "emo/screamo/rocky" and more pop-y
I always liked Pop music
I like catchy songs, with good lyrics
and fun to sing.
Or really good to dance to.
Everyone is different.

Enjoying ...
new The Rasmus album
new Daft Punk album
having internet and not having to watch data usage

Wondering ...
why I just sit at home alone and don't go out and make friends
I'm feeling a little lonely at the moment.
but then I sit and think.
I prefer this. I'm not a very good friend
I don't go out (I don't like it)
but maybe, I should be forcing myself to go out
but then my brain starts
I worry about people judging me, but thats okay
My biggest issue is
what if someone does actually like me
and does want to be friends with me
I'm really lazy.
I find having friends hard.
I'm a weirdo
but this is why I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life.
If what I'm doing is the right thing to do.

20 September 2013

Movies, Daft Punk & iOS7

I've been sick
Been off work all week.
Luckily, it isn't Whooping Cough
The doctor said it might be.

So I've been watching movies and tv shows for the last couple of days

These are what I've watched over the last couple days.

I've also been obsession over...

my Daft Punk obsession is back
I have some rather "nsfw" thoughts about these two handsome robots.
not too fussed about what they look like under their masks
they can leave them on!

I'm loving their new album Random Access Memories
especially the songs;
Instant Crush
Lose Yourself to Dance
and Get Lucky (but only because I haven't heard it in weeks!)

Daft Punk Spam

You can really tell who my favourite is!

What else have I been up to?
Still haven't managed to move all my stuff out of my dads house yet.
Things keep coming up, like being sick and working etc.
And I would love to have someone to help, but everyone is busy :(

I downloaded iOS7 for my iPhone
and I LOVE IT!
A lot of people don't like it
but they're crazy :)

Have a great weekend :)

15 September 2013

What I'm Loving Now - Godus

Godus is a video game available now on Steam. It's the Pre-Release Beta and it's $AU19.99
I thought of waiting a little while to buy it, but after watching various youtube video play throughs I decided to spend the $20.
It was money well spent. I bought it at 1pm and have played 5 hours worth so far.
It's a beautiful, addictive game.
The idea is, that you're God and you need to help your followers advance and make sure they believe in you.

As your civilisation grows, so does the amount of land you have, you just keep expanding and expanding. (I'm not sure if it's infinite or not)
The game is about 40% finished, and there is already so much you can do! I can't wait for the updates.

07 September 2013

Religious Nuts = :(

A crazy religious nut left a flyer on my car today.
Out of all the cars in the car park, my car was the only one that got one.
Because of my heartagram stickers.
Heartagrams that are completely unrelated to religion, (it's a symbol of a band called HIM) but happen to resemble pentagrams.
And even if I was a Pagan or a Wiccan (I'm sorry I'm not sure which one (if any) use it) it's not reason to leave religious propaganda on my car.
It was more funny than anything. It was talking about ID implants (like in the future) and how anyone who gets one is going to HELL.
It does freak me out a little, these sorts of people scare me.
I'm a Roman Catholic.
But I believe in Evolution and the Big Bang Theory.
Extremists scares me. Religious and Atheist and others.
You can be religious or an atheist or whatever.
It doesn't bother me. Just don't try and force your opinions on me.

Anyway changing the subject.
Something to make me feel better.


He's a youtuber.
He does game commentary. 
He also has the most subscribers on Youtube.
Just under 13,000,000 subscribers.
And strangely enough, I'm not one.
Especially when he plays scary games.
He's the biggest scaredy cat
and screams like a girl.

He's also....

Other things that make me feel happy:

finally being able to buy awesome clothes
(but not having enough time/social events to wear them)
Hatfilms... especially this, this, and this.

Hope everyone is having a nice weekend.
We have a rent inspection on Monday so I will have to spend all tomorrow cleaning.
Have a great Sunday.
Don't let our new Prime Minster get you down.

06 September 2013

Quick Update!

It's Spring!

I'm half moved into mums.
My bed and computer are here.
My book shelves and most of my stuff is still at dads.

It feels good.
I only have to share a bathroom with my sister.
I have a kitchen that I don't have to worry about getting in the way.

They range from $9.95 ea to $19.95

UPDATE: I bought some CANisters :)
They're pretty and I managed to get 8 for only $100!

I'm so excited!
I can finally watch all the movies I want to.
Download games on Steam and update my old games!

I finally finished a book!

The second one I've finished this year (yeah I'm bad)
The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman.
I'm not 100% sure how I feel about it.
It was strange, and disturbing and very real, even though it was full of fantasy.
I like the way it was written as sort of a biography, but then fantasy was added.

My weeks are busy now I work full time.
I'm trying to post regularly but it's not happening.

Have a great day!